Tuesday, January 3, 2012

These are the Days

Wow what a New Year!!! We had the best New Year's party ever -- there were up to 16 kids rambling through here at one point. Talk about exhausting but I absolutely wouldn't give back the laughter I heard from my own kiddos throughout the night.

Growing up, when I thought about how my life would be, I honestly never once pictured myself married. I wanted to write and I imagined myself being quite the loner. I'm glad that I left that path for a little while, because I have my children here with me. Now, in this New Year, I find myself hearkening back to that old dream. It's so exciting because for once I'm not trying to please anyone. I'm spending my time trying to get back to an authentic version of myself. I am so EXCITED!!!

A friend of mine and I are going to get together to work on a new wreath for the front door. "Woooo Pig Sooie!!!" -- of course it will be red and black. I hope we work a "Sooie" right in the middle or something. She is ultra creative and I can't wait to work with her. Just being around her makes me laugh!

My child insists that I read the Hunger Games so I imagine I will probably do that this weekend while the kids are at their dad's.

I want to lose 40 pounds in this New Year.

Next year at this time, above all else, I hope I can say for certain that I've solved a life-long mystery. A question always hidden in the shadows making me wonder. Often times causing my heart to hurt when my lack of an answer has been ridiculed by people whom I thought loved me. Yes, an answer and a connection at this time next year will be wonderful.

It's like that older movie "Waiting to Exhale".....not there yet. But inching forward everyday.